One day under goal. Hope I can keeping the focus. Maybe remember how difficult it is to breathe with bad lungs.
Last week’s count: Goal count is 15
Sunday I was awake almost all night. I really couldn’t smoke but I kept lighting them anyway.
Monday I couldn’t breathe. The three cigarettes that I did light, I did not smoke; I just held them and wished I could smoke.
Tuesday, after a doctor visit on Monday, I started breathing again, but I couldn’t do much for the want of oxygen, so I got bored quickly. Still trying to smoke on this day, but just lighting the cigarette and holding seemed to work on the habit.
Thursday, I was feeling more energy and was able to do things that required engagement. It’s easier to avoid smoking when my hands and mind are both busy.
Lesson learned: Breathing is good. I also learned that I am a creature of habit. If my schedule is tipped too much, that is to say that I cannot do the things I want to do, it causes stress which induces smoking habits. I still need work on the triggers.